Being a person who cares, loves deeply, and gives their all when it comes to relationships can be quite a challenge. Sometimes, it even makes you question whether it’s really necessary to be a good person — or to feel love at all.
These are questions I’ve been asking myself for the past two years, and I still don’t have all the answers.
I’ve given my all when it comes to relationships. I’ve loved, cared, and tried my best to make connections work — but all of it has gone unnoticed. I’ve met people who made me question my worth, who made me feel worthless. People who made me feel like I was too much, like I was toxic.
I lost myself.
I lost faith in love.
I lost faith in the idea that I could ever experience real, genuine love.
I lost hope that love would ever find me.
But I worked hard to get back on my feet. I focused on self-love. I began doing activities that brought me peace and happiness. It wasn’t easy. It was a tough journey — with days of breakdowns, days when I felt like getting up wasn’t worth it.
But I didn’t give up. I fought.
And finally, I was out of that dark place.
My heart had already decided to build walls around itself — to protect it, to make sure no one could hurt it again. But the truth is, those walls weren’t bulletproof.
Because I fell in love again.
This time, I wasn’t sure. But I decided to take a leap of faith and let my guard down. We were inseparable. It seemed real — like I had finally found my fairy tale.
But things aren’t always what they seem.
I was ignored.
It hurt in a way that felt like forever.
It still does.
I couldn’t understand how someone could ignore the person they claim to love. I was shattered. I found myself back in that dark place I had fought so hard to escape. I cried.
But I knew I couldn’t let this defeat me.
I have a life ahead of me — and a purpose.
So I began the journey of healing again. A journey filled with tears, flashbacks, and days when I didn’t want to wake up. But day by day, I knew I was making progress. Every cry, every tear, meant I was getting closer to healing.
I decided to find ways to make myself happy again.
That’s when I joined Lodpost — a platform where you can write articles and earn. I saw it as a way to share my story. To let others out there, going through the same pain, know that they are not alone — and that they should not give up.
I believe in myself.
I believe that everything I’ve been through has made me stronger, wiser, and able to help others.
I may have been beaten down — but I won’t give up.
I still have so much to give.
My love will be noticed one day. I’ll find my fairy tale.
But for now, I’m taking care of the most important person in my life:
Me.
Self-love.
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