I can still remember it, we broke up 5 years ago. We were together for almost 6 years. I'd never thought it would all end this way.
You were taking mechanical engineering, ako naman industrial engineering. Nagkakilala tayo dahil sa differential calculus. Haha. Peste talaga yang subject na yan. Nakadalawang ulit tayo sa subject na yun at nakakatuwa talaga ang tadhana kasi lagi tayong magkaklase. Haha. After that, you courted me. I became friends with your friends and you were friends with mine. Your parents and my parents even met. In short, everyone was shipping us.
We graduated and started working. Siguro kasi sanay tayo na laging magkasama kaya nung nag-work na tayo pareho ay nahirapan tayo. You cheâted on me with your co-worker and I decided to end us. You begged me to stay and give you a second chance but I refused. I started focusing more on my career.
Months later, I found out your co-worker was pregnant. That's was when I decided to cut you out of my life for good. Your father and mother and I still kept in touch. They were like family to me. They respected me enough not to mention you when we talk or go out for lunch. I love your family so much.
Last February, your mom got rushed to the ER. She had a heârt âttâck. I rushed to the hospital to check on her. That was the first time we saw each other after the break up, after 5 years. You looked stressed. F*cked up and unwell. But that stressed out face turned into that smile when you saw me. That smile that never failed to make my heart melt. I asked you how your mom was and you said she was okay and they are moving her to a room.
Unexpectedly, you hugged me and I found myself hugging you back. It felt so good. It felt like coming home. We broke the hug when I heard my parents and your dad calling to us. They had this grin on their faces na para bang kinikilig sila. Hahaha. I could actually feel my face turn red kasi kinikilig din ako. Ang lândi pero totoo. You gave out your hand to me and said,
"Tara, puntahan natin si mommy."
I don't know what hit me because I took your hand and again, yung mukha ng parents natin ay kinikilig sila. I got to talk with your mom in private while you, my parents and your dad were at the coffee shop.
Mom: Anak, kayo na ba ulit?
Me: Nako mommy, hindi po.
Mom: Bakit?
Me: Anong bakit, mommy? Haha. Ngayon lang po ulit kami nagkita after 5 years.
Mom: Eh ano naman? Hindi pedeng magkabalikan? Anak, nagsisi na siya and he was never in a relationship after you guys broke up. Lumipat na siya ng company para lang hindi na niya makita yung babae na yun. Hay, nako. Tapos buntis yung babae! Nako, anak. Akala namin sa kanya pero sinabi niya na wala naman daw nângyâri sa kanila, nag-dinner lang naman daw sila kaya imposibleng sa kanya. Kaya nung pinanganak, pina-DNA namin. Ayon, hindi nga sa kanya. Kaya inudyok na namin na makipagbalikan siya sayo pero naduwag daw siya.
Natahimik na lang ako. Napaisip na sana pala binigyan ko pa siya ng chance.
Mom: Anak, mahal mo pa ba?
And that made me more silent. I never stopped loving him. I never wanted to move on. My thoughts were interrupted when you came in and said my parents already left. It was getting late so I decided to go home. You offered to escort me home, I wanted to decline but your mom and dad were very persistent.
On our way home, you heard my tummy rumble. Sobrang nakakahiya pero hindi pa kasi ako kumakain ng lunch and dinner. Tumawa ka and made a turn para makakain tayo sa KFC. Nagkwentuhan, nagtawanan. Ang pinakanakakatuwa is I didn't have to tell you my order. Alam mo na agad. Hahaha! Pero ang pinakanakakagulat is alam mo kung saan ako nakatira. I never told you the directions to my house (I don't live with my parents anymore). You parked in front of my driveway and turned the engine off.
We were both silent. And then you scratched your head, you were nervous, I could tell. Then you asked for my number. You got out of the car and opened my door. Your scent lingered me when you hugged me again. I hugged you back and offered you to come in. You were smiling from ear to ear and said yes. It was 11pm and we decided to take a swim in my pool. We were reminiscing the past, I am 5 feet tall so it was a struggle for me to catch up with you. You carried me and we kissed. No words can describe how much I missed you and I felt that you missed me too. You spent the night at my house and I woke up alone but you left a note.
"Tumawag si mommy sakin and kailangan daw ng kapalit ni dad sa hospitâl. Sorry, I had to leave. :( Gusto ko pa sana matulog at yakapin ka kaso kailangan ako nila mommy. Last night was the best sleep I had for the last 5 years, kahit 4 hours lang yon. :) Wala kang work today kaya date tayo mamaya, okay? I will pick you up at 6:30pm. I won't be late, I promise. I love you so much!"
I was so excited. Kilig overload nga naman. Hahaha! You took me to your friends event place. It was so nice. Nakakatuwa because you rented the place just for our dinner. Dinner was done and you asked me if we could dance. We did. I closed my eyes and savored the moment. When I opened them, our family members were all there. Even our friends. You let go of me and someone gave you a mic.
"Lauren (not my real name), the pain of not getting close to you for 5 years disappeared when we were together last night. It might be so creepy but I stâlked you for 5 years. Hindi ko kaya mag-move-on, e pero makita lang kitang masaya, masaya na rin ako. Sobrang galing ng tadhana kasi gumawa siya ng paraan para magkasama tayo ulit. I promise to make up for lost time, to make you feel love with every day that comes by us. I can't promise to be the best husband but I will always be here for you. I lost you once. I don't want to lose you again. So, please, make me the happiest man alive. Will you marry me? Please say yes kasi 5 years kong pinagipunan dream wedding natin lalo na yung honeymoon trip. Hehehehe."
Tears were rolling down my face as I said yes. I know. Sobrang bilis, no? Pero ayoko na rin siyang mawala. Time really healed the pain. Naisip ko pa noon na baka hindi talaga kami para sa isa't isa. But this just proves na at the right time, the right person will come... or even maybe come back. ;)
Mrs. Engineer.
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BS Industrial Engineering
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