But then truth is, there is something has bugging me for almost two years ago since it happens.i my cashier in one of well known supermarket around my town,
So then one Friday morning my boss called me to his office and sort out something quick, only to find my long childhood ex boyfriend in his office, to cau the chase I was told to show him around,at first I hesitated until I give in.
Our tour was silence for almost twenty minutes until he asked me:"If I heard it correctly, you were asked to show me around and introduce me to stuff and others, ain't it?I kept quiet like there was no one talking to me.After the tour I too my position and sits to help customers until I report off duty.
Deep down I know that I was not confused or suprise by his arrival,no it was more than that.I still have something for this guy but I still trying to figure it out.At home I did not tell my husband about him course I thought it means no harm.
Now my routine started to change,I will always try to look my best and neat all the time.we started talking after two days and already it was like a year.Everyday or sometimes he will ask about my husband and my kids , and how is my life in particular.I thought well , since my husband is sick and most of the time when cames from work he goes to shower and head straight to bed, then these might be an innocent opportunity to share some of my problems with the guy.
For about this relationship continues and I almost forgot that I m married women.So ,at the other till was my friend who also works as a cashier and she was a related to my friend.So now this started me to think, so someday when I m at home I will call my ex and ask of his whereabouts, then we will meet at my friends place when my friend Is at work.
She will leave the keys to my watch them I'll spent the rest of the day chatting about this and that,our times together, the good times and the bed times ,we started to connect and open to each other.Sometimes he will offer me money I will refuse telling him I don't do charity and I k not for sale.
I saved his number with my friend name for some reason.Then one day he called me to say he is very sick ,so he asked me If I could bring some medicine for him from the pharmacy,.Ah well I said, well it's no harm 😔 Afterall he the person I know,He promised to payback for the medicine once I get to him.
I took a taxi a fetch his meds and return.Go to his place and find him in bed ,to my eye he was fine but then who m I to be a doctor.I handed him meds , that is when he holds my hands and felt something I haven't felt in long time.I felt shivering down to my spine and back to my brain.
That moment I knew right there that there was no turning back,it was the heat of the moment.That moment we made love like never before.As we lay , that is when I heard from the first time that he is married with kids.i could have died,I thought I was dreaming and I felt used.thou I tried to stay calm and cool,deep down I felt this strange jealousy out of me.
I said well,I have a husband whom I love and Who loves me.As I walk out of that door for the first time since enter since, the world was new and strange to me,. Questions start to rouse in my mind, what have I done,why did I do what I did.I reached home and headed right to the shower, passing my husband like a shadow.Ashamed to look at him nor say something,all I managed to say was,hie, how was your day.Then something stuck on my throat for few seconds, that's when I rushed to the shower without even cooking that everything course I was disgust to human kind,I was an evil woman,
I mean yes I am in love with my husband but if this is love why should I still cry myself overnight,why do I still have to share with you,why I still have to talk about over and over again,.The guilty is eating my heart everyday,the shame and when I look at my husband and my kids,it's all coming back and cones strong.
Sometimes I wish to to confess about it , but how will my pastor look at me,my in-laws,my boss,oh, what about my kids.Or should I keep quiet and made peace with myself which I can't.
I just don't know what to do course this incident could kill my marriage and my family
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