It was a sunny Friday afternoon on the 16th of July 2020 when i bumped into this lady by the name Cynthia in a grocery store. She had captivating looks and was nice to behold. I couldnt take my eyes off her from the point where i was shopping at the store. She was clad in pink top and a black denim trouser - outfits that complented her swarty skin complextion. In my engrossment at her beauty, i took steps to where she was standing and said 'hello' and contrary to my expectations, she was easy going and very friendly. We got talking as if we've been friends for years. We talked concurrently while shopping. I had to pause mine to follow her around- lol. As easy as ABC, i got her number and i promised to call her as soon as i got home and of course i kept my promise. Things just panned out smoothly, commuications heightened by the day, and what felt like love started budding from both ends.
We had our first date 2 weeks after we met and it was an awesome moment with her. We really were into each other and fond of ourselves too. At our first date, i told her i loved her so much and surprisingly, she told me she felt the same way too. She told me she feels comfortable been around me and made me promise never to take her feelings for granted. Ooops! At this point, it was palpable that my feelings for her paerled in comparison to hers - hers was stronger and quite sincerly, it got me afraid because i wasnt that ready to be too committed.
We got along as lovers for 3months and we had relishing fun. we kissed, cuddled and had passonate sex on multiple counts. However 4 months into our relatioship, things took a downward spiral. I noticed something about her that really put me off. I had never noticed that before 3 months prior perhaps because an opportunity to notice such was not created. I realized that she had a medical condtion that caused her to bed wet. I noticed this the first time she spent the night at my place. I always surprised whenever she wakes from bed wearing something different from what she wore the previous night before hitting the sack. I was also curious about how and why the portion of the bed where she slept was always wet and smelly in the morning. I could not connect the dots and it didnt make sense to me at the time untill this happened for more than 5 times with the same indicators. It then became easy to conclude that she was responsible for the bed wetness at night and therefore would quickly change into something else so that i dont get to notice it on her - but i already did. Hmmmmn. Trust me it was always an appaling site and suddenly the lady i onced admired and loved became an object of disgust to me. I soon woudnt want her to come visit me anymore and the feelings i onced had for her vanished into the blues. I ended the relationship with her. I told her i needed a breakup. She asked me why and i didnt have any logical answer to that question. I got her in tears for months. I broke her fragile heart. Best of friends now have become aliens to themselves with reduced if not zero commuication.
I thought i loved her but now i know better. It was mere infatuation. Perhaps i was only carried away by her physical looks and when i got really close, her core weakness appalled me to the point where i took the back door. Now i tell myself that i did the wrong thing. I tell myself that if i really loved her that much, i should have weathered the strom with her. I should have looked for solutions to her problem instead of running away. I wasnt perfect myself. I also had my waeknesses that she was probably putting up with and loving me anyways. I must have been very childish. I have learnt a lesson from that which is that love comes with responsibilites. If you say you love someone, then you should be ready to put up with thier all including thier shits - this is real love.
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