My name is Sarah,I'm from South Africa Pretoria, growing up was not easy since my mother passed away when I was at my tender age of just 7 years old.
Me and my siblings were passed on to different relatives because our father couldn't support us financially,so most of our relatives abused us severely especially me as they were jealous of my intelligence (I was an intelligent black girl at school).
So I suspect that might have traumatized me and added to my mental illness that I came to descover on the 23 June 2023.
Im a very religious person,and i tried to commit suicide in 2019 so I think the poison also affected me mentally because I was never the same since then,I started to hear voices,I was so terrified of poop and patrified of feces when I would see dog poop or human feces I would not eat, the image wouldn't leave my mind.
I didn't know what was happening to me so I started burning my pictures,my clothes and eventually my furniture whenever I Burned my belongings I would feel better but I ended up burning everything I owned.
I was renting somewhere,so one night I felt very depressed and I became psychotic and screamed at the top of my lungs and people came running asking me what was the matter I made up a story and said that I failed at varsity,truth is that I desperately wanted to leave from where I was renting (because the place was filthy),and I couldn't because I believed it was the will of God for me to stay there,so they left,in the morning I screamed again they came and open the door I thought they were witches coming to take my gifts from God so I started to become psychotic again I saw and felt water on my body I saw a knife and smelled different kinds of African herbs that are used by witchdoctors,but in reality it was all in my mind,mind you I don't smoke nor drink.
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