The one who almost got away

When a person sits back and think about love,all they ever want is a fairy tale...

Well they say what you give in you will get out....

I personally do not believe that...and this is why.

It was back in 2014, usual day at the office, just starting new with many new faces and personalities that was a variety. Me being a typical person ,watching other couples 💑  greet , hug and kiss each other in the mornings and goodbye in the evenings...

Any girl like myself will think the question .... would I be love???

Most of the woman here if not all of them are way out of my league!

I was happy yet lonely being single for so long...

I eventually spotted a girl who I haven't seen in my life but felt as if I knew her since childhood. 

She gave me butterflies of which I could not eat at times.

We eventually started talking and our relationship blossomed from there on.... she was the most popular and most beautiful girl that I have seen.

She was amazing... always smiling and always chatting away..

I gre fond of her and decided to pursue a relationship with her.

It was amazing at first...bookings , dinner, spending lavishly! Which I did not mind because she was the love of my life at this point. I would of did anything to prove that!

We eventually moved in and become a solid couple!

Everyone wanted the type of relationship we had.

Our romantic night for two has come and I wanted to now make her feel good , cause she damn well made me feel good without a physical touch, however as a woman being touched is eventually a craving u can't ignore.

There were nights I would cry thinking if there was something wrong with me.

Everytime I have initiated her to make love to me , she always had an excuse.

There was nights where I was loved and touched but that's only cause she was high....

It became a depression for me. Had the thoughts run through my mind... why can she only do this when she is under the influence???

During this time of her "Learning" phase I have been a back bone and her emotional structure. 

I have settled with a saying of what ever makes makes happy makes me happier.

Eventually i had to ask her... well that did not go as planned , she wanted to end things if I kept asking her to show me love or make love to me...

And again me being Me I have never lost the plot of making her happy even through my sadness. 

During the years she has lost alot of people which gave her the upper hand to never try and do what normal couples do.

It's now been 8years and I have asked again....

Well this time resulted in a breakup of never coming back...

She always told me she will learn....but I guess it was all for the sake of me giving her a nice life... 

It's been more than a year for my break up and shame I guess her grass was not greener on the other side....