THE REASON I KNOW ABOUT LOVE

    Love meant nothing to me, love was just

another word I heard, like the words in the

dictionary, but the only difference between

the word love and the other words in the

dictionary was that I never looked for the

meaning of "love".

To me love was just another word that

deceived human beings, thinking something

that deep, something as emotional and

strong as that word existed! I never believed!

I never wanted to understand it, I never

wanted to try and see if the word actually was

real, or if it was just one of those words

people misused. I had played with the emotions of men,

had "dated" I had felt no sort of emotion

whatsoever to those men I dated! Not even a

rise in my heart beat when I see them.

I never wanted to give this word" love" a try,

never ever!

     I met a young man called Tani, expected

him to be one of those "men I date", but no,

Tani was different. Tani had a character I had

never encountered, Tani used words on me I

had never heard before.

       Days had passed and I kept feeling this

different kind of heart beat, weeks passed I

still couldn't stop smiling at his texts, a month

passed and I wondered why I was so

attached to this young man.

I still didn't believe in love, I never will, I never

wanted to, but this young man kept talking to

me, kept defending me, kept being by my

side no matter what, I wasn't used to this! No

I wasn't, no man had lasted more than two

weeks with me, so why was Tani different?

Why did Tani stay?

      It had been a month with him and I knew

was falling hard, he met my mom, my dad,

my sister and all of them loved him, my family

members don't like the men I bring, so why

was Tani different? What was Tani doing

differently?
    There was no answer for this till when I was at my lowest, my mental health had gone from a ten to zero, I was depressed, I was suicidal, I didn't want to talk or see anyone, I cut off people from my life, I started getting aggressive with people.

I wanted no one or anyone around me, but Tani stayed, Tani kept pressing to see me, he wanted to show me the "love "I needed, the love I didn't understand was real. He sacrificed everything to keep being with me, he left his family, work, friends, just to get me out of my depressed state, Tani was there for me like noone was, Tani stayed, he showed me affection, love.

   I asked him why he did all of that when I was much better, and he said, do you understand the meaning of "love" ?
j was shocked because noone had ever asked me that, but he did, only Tani did, and I asked what love meant, and he said, everything I do, everything I feel, everything I say is love...