Understanding

I looked at the stars before i saw the moon, sometimes is not all about what's in the bigger picture, yesterday i was sitting thinking maybe not everyone re meant for that crown,or Fame or even the riches of the world as u may put it,God looked at my mom befor i was born,nd she have always said i took nothing frm her or my dad,not even by looks or characters,i almost ruined my life thinking I wasn't good for anything,but somehow this whole ruining show brought me close to something great,many would say i ask for GOLD but you gave me stone,why few would say i ask for  stone's but u give me Gold,the universe I think its an uncomplete circle wit this very mistakes,you ever ask why evil  proper the most, nd why the good parishes,nd how often we hear Abt the devil nd it manipulation upon man but still many wanna be used by him,well as for God no one ever understands him,nd as for the good no one ever sees it's worth nd work unless few,but dis all ends up in Good stories,like many u have heard,why is it that the only true peace u get is judgment which is referred to death,nd evil is a state of war, would u say trying to savior is pure evil,cus even the riches of man were gotten frm one evil or the order,i was bad like i said, i was trying to ruining my own very life but somehow the evil i did leaved wit me,the time i spent ruining my life,it was only building i,i told myself since i was bad they was nfin good coming frm me,why not i let the pharse work for me,frm bad to good,cus the reason sin was ever on earth were frm the art of men  sorting out to be righoust,i looked down on my self before i could see the height i was,i gave so much energy to been bad,i sorted death i felt judgement,i was giving a choice,i was to pick frm bad to becoming something good,i had to use everything I learnt frm my bad day to straighten up my good Days,i looked to devil before i saw God,i saw hell before i knew heaven,i went under for i could understand life,,,, tanks